Eight Years Ago...

On this day eight years ago I made the best decision of my lifetime! When you say "I do" you can't imagine that down the road you could love that person any more than you already do at that moment. I can say today my love for Eric is incomprehensible to me. The words, "I love you" seem extremely inadequate at best...! And I definitely love him more than I did 8 years ago!

I created a movie attempting to depict what Eric means to me...Hopefully it gives you a glimpse into our love story.

Happy Anniversary Eric! I don't think I would do very well without you any more:). Hopefully this shows you into my heart:).

XO

Ready Or Not

The big week of the race I've been training for (and blogging about) has arrived. I have one last shorter run to accomplish this afternoon and then I'm putting my training on the shelf and resting...Before exposing my body to uncertain pain :). Our team start time is 5:40 a.m. on Friday. So think of us when you wake up all cozy in your bed. We will be somewhere out in the mountains running (willingly) in the crisp fall air.

I'm not sure that I feel 100% prepared but I've put my best foot forward in my training (ha) and I hope it will be enough. Ready or not, it's time to knock it out!

XO

A picture of last year's race day. Just to give you an idea :).

Steppin' In It

Have you ever stepped unintentionally on a piece of nasty sticky chewing gum spit out on hot pavement...Or worse yet, an unclaimed pile of doggy lawn chocolate?!! You weren't watching where you were stepping and now you and your shoes are paying a steep price for it...

Yes, well I did that this weekend, only not technically with my feet and shoes. I did it in a relationship and now I am paying the price. I've learned a lot about myself through this and about consequences. But I can't shake the way it makes me feel... Just like the sticky tack of your shoes or the smell of them after you step in something, what I did lingers in the back of my mind constantly and it makes me more than sad...More like grieved. Like I've lost something I can't replace and that something WAS/IS valuable to me. I sort of feel like I deserve this and I'm trying to work through it and feel it completely because I never want to do this again.

:(...

Confusion Compounded

I'm confused about something and the more I think about it the more I am confused as to why I am even confused - if that makes any sense... Wish someone could help me sort out my chaotic thoughts and feelings... Just thought I'd let you know. There isn't much more I can articulate eloquently:). Are you confused too now???!!

Have a good weekend!