One Step Behind Reality

Things here are getting a little wild. After over 7 months of Eric manuevering and trying to buy his engineering division it is VERY suddenly happening. If all goes well, and all the required documents and signatures are aquired, Eric will be the proud owner of Vision Engineering by Monday! Were we anticipating this date as the closing date? No...But ready or not, the bank and the owners are pitching to him. I guess I always thought the closing date would come at the earliest by mid-December the latest being the first of '08. It's funny when you get your mind set on something how a sudden change can interrupt your orbit and throw it off balance. All of this "suddeness" is a little overwhelming to both of us. I readily admit that this is happening at a rate I am not digesting. Which makes me think I am insane to just let this coast right into our lives before we anticipated it. Regardless of my inability to comprehend this I have complete confidence that Eric will smack this pitch right out of the park. This is his time and I know, as well as many others that he of all people can do this and do well with it (the company)!!

For now I'm trying to level believing that we are ready and can handle this on top of the holiday hub-bub, two children and their activities for the holidays, and everything else life gives day in and day out. Perhaps if I had time to think it all through I would melt down. At least this way it is done and we move forward!

If you would have told me a year ago this is where our lives would be today I probably would have laughed at you and I'm sure I wouldn't have believed you for a second...

Thankful!

Since Thanksgiving is upon us I thought I would jot down a small list of (in no particular order of importance) the things I am most thankful for. I feel like I am often so rushed, especially with 2 kids that I wanted to take a quiet moment of reflection before this holiday slips past me for another year.

Wishing you and your loved ones a warm and happy turkey day!

XO

I'm thankful for life, for breath, for a heart that beats so that I can experience the every day and the mundane.

I'm thankful for love - to give and receive it, to feel it and touch it. To be burned by it and to burn with it...There is no greater wealth.

I'm thankful for my friends and family who understand me (or maybe they don't all the time:)!) but regardless show me what it is to love and be loved.

I'm thankful for a warm house filled with loud and at times screaming children, an often dirty kitchen, and an often dusty shelf filled with memories. These are the sounds and signs of a healthy home.

I'm thankful for my husband. I haven't met a woman or wife yet that is luckier than me. I can't believe sometimes that he is mine and I NEVER want to take him for granted, though I'm sure I do:).

I'm thankful for this quiet moment to reflect on these things. It's quiet because my kids are napping and for that I am thankful too!:)

Without these basic elements in my life, I would be lost. What a great time of year to reflect and remind ourselves that life is a rare and incomprehensible treasure:).

Take Every Breath God Gives You for What It's Worth."

Yes...Another blog set to music. I can't help it. I've been wanting to blog for a few weeks now about living life with no regrets, getting older, etc. And I couldn't find the words to bring my thoughts to life...Until I watched the CMA's last night and saw Kenny Chesney perform "Don't Blink". And I knew that was it, there was something to build my blog around. I've heard the song before a few times and loved the lyrics but this time I heard the song filtered through what I've been wanting to write about.

Here we are in this game of life and the older we get it seems the faster the game goes. I am now approaching my 30's (turning 29 this year) and I know those who are already there are probably already rolling their eyes at what they think I'm going to say but I'm going to say it anyway - you can keep rolling your eyes...:) It seems that at 30 something changes - either it is that you realize you aren't as young as you want to be anymore or that you realize youth is getting away from you in the blink of an eye. Suddenly 1 year doesn't seem so long and you want to make your time worthwhile, live with no regrets.

I decided after thinking a lot about that statement, "Live with no regrets" that for me that is impossible to do. I live and that in itself is a gift. I don't know how one can truly live without regrets when we can't know, don't know the consequences of all our decisions before we make them or while we are making them. I think I want to get to the end of my life and look back and be thankful for a life lived to the best of my knowledge and ability. I want to look back and like this song writer so aptly put it, see that in a blink of an eye I've lived a life full of love.

And for those of you who may think (or have accused me of) taking life too seriously - believe me I'm not:)! I'm just living! And taking every breath God gives me for what it is worth! I think each breath is priceless!